Loneliness

Hey whoever happens to read this post, it's been quite a while since I've written anything here, but I really needed somewhere to vent and I am awful with sharing feelings out loud so this is the next best thing. Anyways, I've been feeling so insanely lonely here at University and I don't know why. I guess I just don't feel like I've managed to make any friends. Sure I have people that I talk to and will go hang out with, but none of those long lasting friendships that everyone expects to make in University. I live in a house with four other girls and share a room with one of them but I spend most of the day by myself because I can't really connect with them. Two of them were best friends before coming and the other two clicked automatically. Everyone is just so comfortable with each other and I really haven't gotten to that stage. They are all fine with making silly faces with each other and joking around, doing embarrassing things that they won't be judged for, but I can't. When I even think of making a fool of myself I think of all the bullying I went through in elementary school for being myself, that's all I was doing and people just thought it was strange even though i was happy.It doesn't help the fact that I feel like I'm being annoying or a bother when i ask them to do something with me. I guess I really just wish I could be the same person I am with my friends back home and I couldn't want the school year to end more than I do right now.