Ready To Go Back?

If you've kept up to date with my blog then you would know that I had a rough time last year while I was away at University. I lived in a residence townhouse with 4 other girls and had to share my room with one of them. This year coming up, I have found a place off campus with 3 girls and 1 guy that are all going into their last year of University and are very focussed on their schooling. Since I've been home for the summer, I've found a job and have been keeping myself busy constantly. I do still have my few friends that I made from the end of last year, but since starting my new job (cashier at a grocery store), I've found that I now have an easier time talking to people I don't know and with that am becoming more confident than I was before. Keeping this in mind, I am hopeful for this year and getting along with my new roommates. With move in day being two days from now, I am only now packing and am slowly starting to feel the stress of not having everything ready and with that not being ready for school as a whole. This being caused by the fact that I don't want to be there.

 I've had my experience with school and for the most part, I did not enjoy it. In fact, I rarely enjoyed the social part of it as well. I finally told my mom and grandma when I may have had a huge breakdown and neither of them were very understanding. The pressure continued and despite the amount of times my mom has told me she will support my decision, she hasn't seemed very supportive with me just wanting to stay with my job for now so that I can save up, move out for good, and figure out what I want out of life from there. At this point in my life I would rather concentrate on my own happiness and going away to school won't be helpful. Maybe in the future when I have figured things out I will be more open to it and it might even make me happy being there. For me the happiest place right now is work. It gets me out of the house and the people I work with are all pleasant and nice people. I may even have a slight crush on a co-worker, but shh...don't tell anyone!