Schools out for summer...SCHOOLS OUT FOREVER!

I can't believe that I've actually made it to this point in my life. I remember wanting to rush through my elementary schools years and straight into high school, but now that it's come to an end I want to take it all back. I want to be that tiny little grade three again. I want to be able to relive the good old days of my crazy childhood. There are so many things I wish I could go back and redo but I can't. Today was the last official day of school, the last day sitting in the cafeteria with my friends, the last day of complaining about how stupid my teacher was for leaving our final project until the last day. Of course I still have three exams to get through and report card pickup, but one can hardly count those as school days. Now I am sitting at home, closing up my books and getting ready for bed in preparation for my first exam tomorrow morning. Part of me wants to cry at the fact that I'll be leaving all of my friends behind and part of me wants to just get the hell out! If only time could just turn back for a split moment in time, just so I could relive a moment from my past, it doesn't have to be happy or sad, just from before. Before I wished my life would just hurry up. Before I grew older. I know that I still have the whole summer ahead of me, but most of that ill be away or preparing to move out by September first. I can't decide if four years is too long or not enough. Maybe if it was shorter I wouldn't have gotten to know and become close with so many people, it would be easier to leave. But then maybe if it was longer I would've just gotten fed up with everyone and it wouldn't hurt as much. 

In grade nine and ten I separated from my elementary school friends and became part of new group that never cared for me the same way my friends do now. It took me a year and a half to realize that as much as I wanted to go off and make new friends, I already had the perfect ones that I just gave up. Thankfully they accepted me back and I couldn't be happier. They truly do bring out the best of me,though currently, talking and thinking about leaving them again is causing me great emotional distress. 

Wish me luck in life because mine has officially begun.